The mind is a fragile thing. Takes only the slightest tap to tip in the wrong direction.

Unbecoming Phoenix



In space, a woman is bursting into light, a boy is burning his wrist. The self-harming ritual, repeatedly interrupted by excursions into the land of milk and honey, exhibits the progress of a continuous destruction. Voices are constantly speaking without stopping, along with cries for attention and calls for help. The majority of speech in the work is quoted from youtube videos of over 100 people talking about the worst thing they have ever done, their biggest regret, their pet peeves, and what they would change about themselves. Few others stem from a superheroine mutant blockbuster movie. Outlining this entire clutter of statements are a few essential quotes by Helen Keller and a final speech inspired by Jamaica Kincaid.

Getting a handle on self-harm and understanding darker forces within. Anticipation arising from a point beyond imagination, like a siren calling from the shallows of shame: a cocktail of melancholy, worry and guilt that would overpower almost anyone, in particular someone on the brink of limbo—stuck in indecisiveness, trying to figure out prevention strategies. Blood, burning marks, incisions, scar tissue can be comforting. Thus, in the middle of experiencing extreme emotion there is a hidden companion, somebody who can be called up at any time without asking permission or compensation. An option to exercise control over damage and its sedative properties. What lies behind it is a pattern of habits that might be traced back to a big bang of solitude, a black sphere of despair, source of turmoil and of relief at once. Phoenix Force Alignment.